There's a heat advisory today for the weather.
At this point in the game, this summer has been nothing but a blur to me. I've been hiding inside my apartment, cloaking myself in ridiculously cold air conditioned air, whilst barely moving. Every year I tell myself, things are going to be different. That I'll do something but every year my plans are axed by something stupid my husband does. Last year he ended up on probation, and he's technically supposed to be off probation in a few months but based on his most recent escapade, I'm not sure if that'll be his end date. These sporadic moments of ignorant bliss is far too many. I'm getting tired. All I can do is pray.
God, I know you hear me. I need your guidance today more so than ever. My husband is struggling. I'm struggling too, but my prayer is for him. I know you have called upon his life. You're expecting him to do your will but he is being attacked by these spirits. We won't give them names, you know what they are. But I ask you to be the mediator and help him fight this battle. You are the Alpha and the Omega, he nor I, are nothing without you and we know what you are capable of. So Father, as we plead for your help, we ask that you grant peace and intervene in what's happening. We are surviving by all looks, but deep down inside, I'm holding him up with the strength I have, and I am getting weary. Help us Father, support one another. We can't and won't be able to do it without you. You are the Truth, the Way, and the Life. I grieve you. Amen.
9:25 A.M. - 07/30/2019